Wake up, look down, hear my pray'r

O gods, o gods, are you there?

Thanks to the musical Once On This Island for these appropriate lyrics.

Exactly one week ago, I went with my mother to her oncologist. Based on her interpretation, my mother's cancer has spread and she will most likely undergo another surgery. And she will definitely undergo chemotherapy. And the doctor said it's most probably in stage 4 now.

Mother was shocked. I was, too, but of course, I couldn't show her. I went back to the office weak in the knees, and I immediately called Neil and cried to him. But my mother? When I went home later that day, she was lying down. Masama ang pakiramdam ko, she said. Alarmed, I texted her sisters and my cousin. The news affected her badly.

We're going to have another doctor look at her test results. A second opinion wouldn't hurt, wouldn't it? I'm praying it's good (or at least, better) news next week.